Tuesday, July 28, 2009

15 months

Wow, the last two weeks have been quite a ride. I spent last weekend with my moms side of the family and we shared a house with Kieth's family, meaning a 15 month old. In a place she's not used to, and with tons of people she's never met before, inlcuding lots of kids to play with, by Saturday night Holly was TIRED. So tired she couldn't sleep, couldn't do anything but cry. Its her only outlet...she can't express what she's feeling or thinking. Crying is the only way.

I internalize my feelings, very rarely expressing them outward, I just don't do that very well. However, they must come out eventually...Sunday morning I hit that point. Standing in my grandmas hospital room I couldn't do anything but cry. I was so tired: emotionally and physically. I didn't know why I was crying, couldn't explain myself. I was just that tired. Crying was the only way.

And I realized there are times when I am just like that 15 month old...with nothing to do, but cry.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009


Well I leave tomorrow for Ben & Katelyn's wedding in Wenatchee! Can't believe its here already! How has it been 6 months since she came to live with me? How can it be time for them to get married already? Crazy! So I tried my dress on last night...apparently the maid of honor has tried hers on like every week! I still had mine in the wrapping it came in when it arrived! Oops! Am I supposed to want to try it on all the time? haha. Well it still fits, so I guess thats all that matters! Dad says its supposed to be over 100 all weekend, so I am thankful she chose strapless, knee-length dresses! Hopefully we'll stand a chance...unlike the poor groomsmen in their full on tuxes!

Well she moved all her stuff out this week before they headed to Wenatchee, and now we've turned her room into an office! It still has lots of work, but it has already been painted! I know, I know! Nothing like painting within days of it being free ;) One wall is a sage/guacamole color, one wall is toffee crunch and the other two are havana dreams! Yes, dont' you wish you had the job of naming paint? I think that would be so fun! But anyways, it looks great! I love the colors together and can't wait to get it all set up! When I'm in Wenatchee this weekend, one of my moms friends has a drafting table she'd like to get rid of...so I believe I will get to bring that back with me! I am SO excited! I pulled out a few of my floor plans a couple weeks ago and have been itching to start some new ones....I am excited to have time to think about (and act on) that passion again! We'll see how it goes!