Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Living the Life...?

There's this overwhelming piece of my mind that wants to continue working towards something. I don't know what to do with this new feeling of "being finished". I enjoy school, enjoy a challenge, enjoy the familiarity of school. I (surprisingly enough) like homework. I like juggling my life. I feel much more productive when I'm working on lots of things at the same time. And I think I accomplish more when I have less time to complete more things. Since I finished school I don't feel like I've accomplished anything and don't really feel like I have any more free time then I used to. Instead, because I have nothing that HAS to be done, by a certain time, it seems as though I am less likely to get anything done. I have spent the last 17 years of my life working towards my future, working towards this "great" feeling of being done. Except now that I'm here I don't know what to do. Where do I go from here? What's next?
Graduate high school....check
Go to college....check
Pick a major....check
Graduate with honors...check
Get a masters degree....check
Get a job....check
Enter the real world....?!?!

I'm here. I'm done. Yet, I feel like I've been in the real world for a years. I've been earning money and paying my own bills since high school. I've done both school and work at the same time. I've juggled priorities. I've kept friendships and worked at making those life long relationships...while still managing to work 40 hours a week, attend every class, turn in every assignment on time, maintain a 3.8 GPA, develop and keep a budget, paid off my undergrad, paid off my car, stayed away from credit card debt....can I go on?! I don't know where I go from here? I've been living in the "real world" for years. I've just been doing it while simultaneously enjoying college life.

Perhaps it will get better now that christmas break is over and my friends are back in town---but thus far, I must say....I miss school. I miss the schedule, I miss my cohort, I miss the people I got to spend 8 hours a week with, I miss writing papers, I miss solving problems, I miss the chaos, I miss my professors...I miss NNU.

1 comment:

  1. I can relate. I loved college. Loved it. You;ll find something else to pour yourself into- just keep looking!


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