Pontiac Torrent

So it's official! I now own a 2007 Pontiac Torrent! I love my car...still, after almost 2 years, feel like its brand new. Every time I get in it, it just makes me happy. I love driving it...pretty much, yup, love everything about it! And after writing out that final, monumental check to pay it off a few weeks ago, I received the title in the mail Monday night! It's all mine! Free and clear! Love it! It's so exciting! (For me anyway :))

Moody Moody Moody

I don't know what my problem is, but I am definitely moody. I am VERY frustrated and snappy at work lately, I don't want to talk to anyone or be forced to listen to one more person complain about work or someone else in the office. (Yes I know they drive me crazy too...I'm just sick of hearing about it!) I constantly just want to go home and cry. I go back and forth between wanting to be by myself and wanting to be with my friends. Which I guess is good, because if I was truly in a bad mood there would be no getting me out of my room. I definitely need to be alone in order to reenergize and be ready to face the next day. And lately it doesn't seem to take much to make me need that extra time by myself. I miss my family...I just want to go home to mom and dad! Ahh, all I want to do lately is cry. At least it doesn't seem to happen except when I'm alone. But maybe its just because when there are other people around I'm more focused on what they're doing to annoy me then on how much I want to crawl into a hole. Not exactly a good thing. The main problem right now, is I'm not really sure what to do about it. I don't want to say anything that hurts anyone just because I'm in a bad mood but I don't know how much longer I can control my tongue! haha. I am typically more quiet then one to open my mouth, but that doesn't mean I don't also cut people with my snappy mouth. I guess all I have to say is pray for me!

Living the Life...?

There's this overwhelming piece of my mind that wants to continue working towards something. I don't know what to do with this new feeling of "being finished". I enjoy school, enjoy a challenge, enjoy the familiarity of school. I (surprisingly enough) like homework. I like juggling my life. I feel much more productive when I'm working on lots of things at the same time. And I think I accomplish more when I have less time to complete more things. Since I finished school I don't feel like I've accomplished anything and don't really feel like I have any more free time then I used to. Instead, because I have nothing that HAS to be done, by a certain time, it seems as though I am less likely to get anything done. I have spent the last 17 years of my life working towards my future, working towards this "great" feeling of being done. Except now that I'm here I don't know what to do. Where do I go from here? What's next?
Graduate high school....check
Go to college....check
Pick a major....check
Graduate with honors...check
Get a masters degree....check
Get a job....check
Enter the real world....?!?!

I'm here. I'm done. Yet, I feel like I've been in the real world for a years. I've been earning money and paying my own bills since high school. I've done both school and work at the same time. I've juggled priorities. I've kept friendships and worked at making those life long relationships...while still managing to work 40 hours a week, attend every class, turn in every assignment on time, maintain a 3.8 GPA, develop and keep a budget, paid off my undergrad, paid off my car, stayed away from credit card debt....can I go on?! I don't know where I go from here? I've been living in the "real world" for years. I've just been doing it while simultaneously enjoying college life.

Perhaps it will get better now that christmas break is over and my friends are back in town---but thus far, I must say....I miss school. I miss the schedule, I miss my cohort, I miss the people I got to spend 8 hours a week with, I miss writing papers, I miss solving problems, I miss the chaos, I miss my professors...I miss NNU.

2009

Well I'm not much for Resolutions...but I do try and make a goal list every once and awhile. I figure this is the perfect time for a new one :) I am no longer in school, no longer looking for a new job and of course beginning a new year, along with the rest of the world :) In 2009 I would like to accomplish...

Professionally:
Take (and pass) the CMA exam
Develop a new idea for work
Draw three house plans
Get AutoCAD
Take another AutoCAD class
Financially:
Pay off my Masters (Undergrad was paid off last year!)
Buy a house
Double my savings account
Personally:
Lose ten pounds
Start a devotional...and continue it!
Begin a daily exercise routine
Volunteer at church - youth group & nursery
Visit Kieth, Jackie & Holly often
Get scrapbooking caught up

Music Boxes

Grandma Sue gives me a music box every year for Christmas. So at this point (for another few days) I have 21 music boxes. For the last four years since I moved to Nampa, they have all been sitting in a box under my parents house :( Before that I had most of them up in my closet at home, but not exactly displayed! However, I finally have the room to do so! This year, they are lining the fireplace...I love it! Can't wait to see which one I get this year!

It's finally here...

I am offically done with school! No more papers to turn in, no more tests to take, no more class! Crazy!! This is my first weekend without homework hanging over my head...it is amazing. Although I constantly catch myself feeling guilty! I feel like there should be something I'm doing! I cannot belive how freeing it is...I feel like I've accomplished more in the last 2 days then I have in years! My entire house is clean, deep cleaned! I organized all the closets, and rearranged my room. I've made fudge, stuffed shells, choc. chip cookies, and peppermint cookies...in the last 24 hours :) I've spent more time hanging out with friends and doing Christmasy things then I thought possible. And in with all of that I've found the time to watch a few Christmas movies, read a book and oh yes, update my blog :) haha. It's been awhile.
I leave for wenatchee on Christmas Eve, unfortunately I have to work all day so I fly out at 4 and am scheduled to land in Spokane...lets hope they don't receive another 24 inches of snow in the next few days! If I have to spend Christmas Eve in the airport somewhere I'm going to be very sad :) I am so looking forward to going home and spending the weekend with just my family. And then...the day after Christmas, Katelyn is moving from Seattle/Wenatchee to Nampa, into my house!! I'm so excited! We've been talking about living together for years, and never knew when it would happen. Well it has finally arrived! I can't wait!!
Merry Christmas everyone! Have a wonderful time celebrating the birth of our savior!

The ponderings...

Its December?! And there is no snow! In fact I am wearing a t-shirt today, this is crazy!

I have been really frustrated at work lately, not because of work or because of my job. Just the atmosphere and how often I step into a converstaion and realize the entire exchange is based on talking bad about someone else. Aren't we supposed to be adults?
There are so many instances when the whole discussion during lunch is how someone did this and isn't that the stupidest thing you ever heard! But the problem is...it is all simply because whatever was done isn't the way he would have done it. Basically if you think something other then he does, you are wrong and stupid. He spends all his time talking about the idiots around here and how all these people have wronged him or done something they shouldn't have. It is driving me crazy! I do not want to spend my break time listening to people complain and tear down other people. I am tired of feeling mad everytime I get up and leave the break room. I don't want to listen to it anymore...but I really have no idea what to do about it. I am just sick of people putting everything in a negative light. Why can't we be content with who we are, understand that everyone is different, celebrate the different traditions and methods we all have...and learn from each other? Is it really so much to ask?!